Stunned

Well, it's finally happened. I learned something so awful that I've lost all faith in humanity. Like, on a personal level I mean. I just learned that a girl that, for one reason or another, I couldn't get out of my mind, has married (best I can perceive) a redneck. I'm floored. I mean, don't get me wrong..I haven't seen this chick in like, 11 years..but still. It's just surprising for me. I always thought of her as a tier above most chicks, and for her to end up married to some redneck (with an amazingly redneck name. It's alliterative, for christ sakes. Like Ricky Ray. And of course this guy has to look like a troglodyte...I'm no looker or anything by any stretch of the imagination man. I'm actually quite hidious and ugly. But goddamn. This motherfucker is looks like a caveman. But I'm one fugly son-of-a-bitch, so who am I to judge, right?

I dunno, I just feel floored. Again, I haven't laid eyes on this girl for a long time..but for one reason or another I just couldn't get her out of my mind. Like, at different points my thoughts always went back to her for some reason. I didn't even really know her all that well or anyting, I never got the chance to know her or really be her friend or anything..but I had a few interactions with her and I just..well, she always stayed in my mind. There was just something about her that stood out as memorable to me, some quality she posessed that made her memorable to me in a way that most other people did not. I have no idea why.

I dunno, I just kinda hoped that whoever she ended up with..well..wasn't some redneck. I mean, I hope the best for them and hope she's nothing but happy and stuff..but geez, it's just such a let down. I feel...deflated. Let down. Bummed that life would end up being so mediocre to someone who, for some reason I can't fathom but I just feel in the bottoms of my soul, I just *know* deserves better. It's kinda disheartening actually. I feel let down enough by life in general, I surely didn't want something like this to happen.

My head's kinda spinning actually. I feel, I dunno, dazed. Stunned. Yeah, I think stunned is a good word for it. Wow. I mean, my life isn't all that good, who who the hell am I to judge anything. It's clear that there's some good things going on for her, so I should just shut my mouth and be quiet. Whatever weird shit's gone on in my mind is just that, weird shit coming out of my amazingly strange mind. So yeah, it's all on me, I'm the fucked up one, and I'll resume my sad, pathetic existence now.

Starbound

Starbound is a new indie game coming out in the very near future! It's kinda like Terraria (or so I'm told)..but it's in space! Check some info out at http://playstarbound.com/ and get excited about the prospect of going foward (in a bold like fashion) to places where no human has been to previously.

They're doing a Kickstarter like preorder thingy at http://playstarbound.com/store/ complete with stretch goals. They just hit $1 million and haven't put another stretch goal up yet..but I'm sure one's coming.

This game looks like it's gonna be neat and I'm very excited about it, and you should be too! Get out your Visa or Mastercard or Paypal or Bitcoin or shiny rocks or whatever form of payment you choose to use and buy this thing. Or it'll just be sad. And no one wants to be sad (except emo kids)!

In other news: goodbye, April!

Gravity is a Cruel and Harsh Mistress

Well! Today started off as a fairly productive day. I managed to wake up amazingly early, got in a little bit of online time surfing around in the early morning hours. Super early, like, when there's nothing but insurance commercials on TV and the sky's still a pinkish color. Surfed around online for a little bit, got to the post office and shipped some eBay items, went to my office and packaged some additional eBay items and made it back to the post office mere moments before they closed! Ha ha, score one for me! My little car didn't even have to break speeds, man. It was awesome.

The rest of the day was spent in various stages of busy. At one point, I manged to fall on/down some stairs..oof. Man, that hurt. Hips, wrist, hand, lower back, all amazingly sore. It hurts when I shuffle around, and I can only imagine it's gonna be fun trying to take a dump in a little while.

Ah well. I'm siting here trying to decide on what film I wanna watch. I'm really aching, and I can only imagine tomorrow's gonna be even worse. Geez. Ah well, things could be worse I suppose. If it's really bad, well, then I'll take advantage of my employer provided medical insurance and go to the doctor. Which I really don't wanna do. :( Times like this make me wish I had pain killers of some sort.

Speaking of poop, I'm gonna share my proof-of-concept for a Tshirt. In the spirit of the "Beef, it's what's for dinner" shirts comes "Poop: It's what was for dinner"

Brilliant.

A Long Day

Ah, the end of another long day. Even though the work week is officially over, there's till no rest for the wicked. A long day of doing some work to the commerical building, handing some eBay matters and generally staying busy. Whew, I'm beat man. I'm currently sitting back, trying to relax before doing whatever the next task ends up being.

I saw that Villyne over at A Clever Blog is doing the A to Z Blogger Challenge. Even though I came back to this a little too late to get in on something like that, I might do something similar starting next month. I have to say that the hardest thing about doing this blog is the content generation, since I have no talent or skill or ability or anything, and I really do ponder long and hard about what stupid words I'm going to put up here. But it's interesting enough, as a creative framework, that I might give it a shot.

I've been working on doing a quick introduction to the Fourth Turning theory..covering the basics of the turnings and some first impressions of what this cycle has brought. It's a theory I've done some serious research and deep thought on, and I do put a lot of stock into it. I'd like to finish up the intro posts, then get into things a bit deeper..and I would put the next update (the Unraveling) tonight..but man, I'm tiiired. I just don't think that's gonna happen.

I'm going to end this with a brief little bit of randomness. I have a nearly three year old HTC Incredible phone. I've rooted it and installed a custom ROM on it, and it's still chugging by pretty nice..but at some point I'm going to need to get a new phone device. I'm happy to have extended the the life out some more..and I would like to have a new phone..but jeez man..with all that's going on I just can't swing a new phone just right yet. I can't justify it as anything other than a luxery, and that's just not cool right now.

And so readers, I leave you with a oldie but a goodie: a break dancing pixel ninja.

 



Not to be confused with the Pixel Ninja

Don't Try the Buffet

Allow me to take a break from my previous rants due to not feeling well, and in lieu I post this funny picture.

I'm not certain but I'm pretty sure that says China Cock

 

 

 

They Tuned Out, Shot Up and Fucked Off

"Like, wow man. We're going to single handedly destroy the entire post-war fabric of society. Woah."

 

 

The Baby Boomers. The Prophets. The Children of the High. The cause of the problem. If I had an infinite amount of space, I couldn't possible begin to write all there is to tell about this horrible generation. Every facet of this saeculum is defined by this generation and their actions, attitudes, beliefs and actions. It cannot be stressed enough that, in my interperation, that the Boomers are at the very heart of everything that's going on in the United States, much less the world. We are dealing with what we all feared would happen: the final conclusion of the Boomer generation in their finally-obtained positions of power.

 

They are the Children of the High, because their generation came of age during the High Turning. They knew the very best of what Post War America had to offer, the spoils and the splender. They got to experience the modern "golden age" in ways that no one else could possibly imagine. Not even their parents, due to their experiences during the last Crisis, could fully appreciate just how good the Boomers' childhood was. Not like they could. These over indulged, spoiled, self-centered and amazingly narcissistic children would cary all of these traits and more with them, as they started to come of age during the Awakening.

 

The Awakening was a period of time starting roughly, in my view, with the death of JFK and continued until roughly the end of the 80s. It was during this period that the boomers came of age as teenagers, then young adults, then actual adults approaching middle age...and just look at what happened. I'll get into this in greater detail later...but for now ponder the greater implications of the just what happened when the spoiled Boomers grew up and began touching the larger world...and how all of that would come back to bite us on the ass in the end.

A Strange Symbol of an Era

"Aroooo!"

An interesting picture. Then VP Nixon and family, with Walt Disney at the opening of the Monorail at Disneyland in 1959. The incredulity of that statement is just mindblowing. I can scarely think of any one picture that might define the postwar End-Of-The-High period. In just a few short years, the wonderment that this picture captured would be replaced..as America left the High and began it's looong trip into the Awakening.

Happy 4/20 Day

Tis the day of celebration and smoking. Everyone feel free to fire up a big fatty bo-batty and go to town. For the smokers, I offer up a funny picture of some Lego men getting high.

                                               The lengths some people are willing to go to in order to get a buzz


Truly these are the best of times. In other news, Starbound has finally started doing pre-orders! The pre-order can be obtained through this link and offering them your hard earned dollars, most likely via Paypal. This game looks to be aces, the developer Chucklefish needs to get some fat bucks so they can make Starbound as awesome as it can be, and it already looks pretty sweet. It has a bit of a Terraria-in-space thing going on (from someone who really enjoyed Terraria, I never played it), mixed in with a sort of Star Trek feeling with a good helping of a Hitchhiker's Guide kind of feel to the lore/universe. And those are definitely not bad things to have mixed together.

Tangent: It's interesting, there seems to be more sci-fi/comedy most other subgenres. There's been some great horror/comedies over the years..and I can't really think of much fantasy/comedy. I guess the fantasy elements don't lend themselves to comedy as easily as the sci-fi elements do. Maybe it's that one has to take fantasy a bit more seriously anyway and it's difficult to have the comedy present and have it not be a detraction.

Anyways, go buy Starbound! Indie games always need support and this one's no different. As for me, I'm waiting to hear back from the Lego men.

Captain's Log, Stardate: 2013.0420

Holy snap, does this thing still exist? I suppose so, I keep getting emails about it. Well that's weird, I thought all this would have faded away by now. It's strange.

I abandoned this, along with most other things, last year after a disasterous chain of events. A series of circumstances which were most unfortunate that left me beyond saddened, beyond depressed. It took a long time and a lot of effort, but I think I've started to pull out and move beyond what all happened. Maybe one day I can get the point where I can talk about it.

But for now, I have this. And I suppose that'll have to do. But hey, it'll all work out. As for now I've been watching a lot of stuff on Netflix lately. I finally got into Doctor Who, which it turns out is a pretty decent show. It's surprising, being as my only memories of it are the original Doctor Who..which, in the 80s, had production values on par with Star Trek in the 60s. Yeah..it was bad. Bad to the point of being unwatchable. But the new show is pretty keen. Christopher Eccleston was very enjoyable, David Tennant was superb, and so far Matt Smith's shaping up to be entertaining.

I've also been watching Outrageous Fortune, a show from New Zealand. It's a highly enjoyable series that despite starting out kinda slow has shapped up to be a very entertaining show. I'm about to finish up the 3rd season now, so I'll have to see how it finishes up. I'll letcha know how it turns out. But beyond that, the only other thing I've been looking forward to is seeing the eventual horrors of the new GI Joe movie that's out. I mean...they basically refilmed the whole damn thing. That's way less than reassuring. It'll be worse than those Transformers movies..and that's saying a lot!

It's been a strange week. From Boston to Texas and back to Boston. The vice keeps turning, tighter and tighter every day. Every day we inch deeper into the Crisis. Maybe some day I'll tell you about that as well.

Captain's Log, Stardate: 2011.1204

For the last seven days, Starfleet Command has kept me running ragged. This, gentle readers, is the reason why I have not updated my log entries in nearly half a fortnight. I apologize and will strive to do better.

I'm also going to take this opportunity to elaborate a little more about why I'm doing this. Simply put: I have a lot of thoughts and comments that I don't want to have associated with my "real" username. I'm not one to do that, really ever (I'm a one username across all services kinda person), but I really wanted to have an outlet that I could use without any real connection to me. Thus, my hidden blog (and my hidden tweets over at Twitter as @myhiddentweets) was born! And it was updated originally in late 2010 as purely a lark and an experiment. I did not like the format, so after a few months I stopped fiddling with it.

The desire to have an unaffiliated outlet, however, persisted...nagging and clawing at my thoughts. And after much thought, I've decided to switch to a Captain's Log style format for these updates. Why? Because I have no talent for any other form of outlet, and this is a style I can understand and work with. I read a Captain's Log to myself anyway when I'm goofing around at various times, so the connection seemed natural.

Since I intent to title these updates in a very similar fashion, I'm going to use labels a bit more to make searching for stuff easier. We'll see how well this works out.

Another elaboration: I don't mean to come across as too cryptic in these things..I'm just trying to keep the veil of obfuscation that I desire this blog to have. It's a very delicate balance, you see. If seems like it's too hard to follow, just let me know and I'll knock it off. I want people to be entertained, not annoyed.On that note, Starfleet Command generally refers to life in general as opposed to any one organization or group..just so no one gets the wrong idea.

Okay, that should about do things for now. The last week has been very busy..at almost a crushing level sometimes. It's not out of the ordinary, but it's still very tiring and somewhat stressful. At least I've only got two more weeks of work till my holiday vacay starts, so that's something positive.

I think that about does it for now.

=/\= End of Log =/\= 

Captain's Log, Stardate: 2011.1127

This is my first log as commanding officer. Starfleet Command has seen fit to recommission the USS My Hidden Blog and assigned her to active duty once more. Her mission remains the same...however the format shall be changed and the original goal shall be reinforced. Or, at least, that's my intention.

Tomorrow starts the official dedication ceremony, but I felt compelled to make this log entry now while the "new ship smell" still hangs in the air. Tomorrow is the return from a crew leave and a return to our relative normal operations...before I find myself back on the bridge, I prefer to bask in the comfort of my quarters.

I hope this proves more fruitful and interesting than past exercises. My overwhelming cynical side says it won't, but I remain optimistic. Perhaps this is the turning over of a new Tarkalean tea leaf. We'll find out soon enough.

=/\= End of Log =/\=

Ghost of Blarg's Past

Gah, been away for a really long time. Things have been hectic and needlessly stressful. I will post a more formal update soon but I wanted to at least be known that I'm still alive. Will check in with everyone when the time is right.

Firefox has been acting goofy lately. Not a fan of Chrome, but might check it out soon. Speaking of checking out, EVGA has some nice nVidia cards..even if the 500 series is a bit pricey. But damn do those things scream.

Happy Halloween!

It's Sunday, it's Halloween, and I'm pilled up and feeling okay! That Verizon Wireless side-thing yesterday was long..but at least it's not stressful. One more Verizon weekend and then I get my full off-time back and I'll be a little bit richer. Yay for Verizon helping to pay for my new gaming PC next year (gotta have one ready for Duke Nukem Forever).  For this glorious Halloween Sunday (which you know Jesus doesn't like), I have some more OC for you. It's another Ghostbusters comic I did a while back.

It made me laugh, anyway. Or chortle, as it were. I dunno. Tomorrow's back to the work week, still driving the rental Dodge Charger (note: Enterprise Car Rental is a pain in the ass to deal with), dealing with the insurance people. This sucks, I must say. Damn that cotton truck for nearly running me over. Anyways, hope everyone has a good Halloween!

PS: This week's Star Trek Online weekly mission was particularly good. A good ghost story, even featuring STO's one type of Proton Pack. It was awesome.

October Surprise

Another day down. Back to doing my side job with Verizon Wireless after a car accident induced delay. One more weekend of this and then the payoff, which is awesome. And hopefully an insurance payout in the next little bit, which will be even more awesome.

McDonald's just a new store not too far from my house, which marks the first time there's anything within 10 minutes drive. It is McDonald's, this is true, but it's better than Jack's. And this means that I can catch the occasional breakfast biscuit on my way to work, which is superb.

I'm really tired..I was up late last night (later than I should have been) re-reading the 4th volume of The Walking Dead. The AMC series is to air tomorrow, and if it's anything as close to as awesome as the comic is..it's gonna be some great zombie TV series viewing. And there's the hour-long Venture Bros. finale as well! Damn, gonna be some good viewing for a change!

And...it's almost time for the election! I'm waiting on the October Surprise...when's it gonna hit? What's it gonna be? The suspense is killing me!

Stumbling Back

The recovery from the car wreck continues. The soreness is mostly gone, just some isolated pains here and there. I've been taking Loretabs and working, so I've spent a lot of time out of it..that's why I've been away for the last little bit. I'm almost back to normal, or what I'd consider normal anyways. It's just been (and continues to be) a hassle to deal with the insurance people, the attorneys, the liability people, the Koopas, the Troopas, the princess and the others, but eventually it'll be done and over with.

For a rental I was given a Dodge Charger (my last car was a Hyundai Elantra), so it's a big change. The Charger is nice, but it's way too much for me (and I could never afford it, anyway). Also, almost dying by getting ran over by a cotton truck has opened my eyes a bit (read: scared the ever loving shit out of me), and I'm going to be making some associated life-choice decisions in the near future.

Sorry I've been away, but I've just been drooling 'cause of these damn pain pills. At least now the pain is largely gone, I don't have to take them as often as I had been. Which means I can get back to updating things in a somewhat timely fashion. I'll post some more OC next.

More car crash recovery

Still recovering from my car crash! Still really sore, still hurting in various places. Dealing with the medical insurance people (Blue Cross Blue Shield) for the ER trip and stuff, dealing with the auto insurance company (Geico) for the claim and the vehicle rental and stuff. Had to delay my side-job with Verizon Wireless until next week..it's just all such a huge hassle. Things will be taken care of until then, but still. It just sucks, all these insurance companies suck. At least it's all being taken care of now, and that's all that matters.

Papa John's and KFC helps to feed the soul when you're laid up hurting and have no ride. Man, I do miss my car. But I'm glad I wasn't killed in the crash (which could have happened quite easily). Now I'm just taking it easy till I get my rental, taking Loretabs when the pain creeps up, and just kinda hanging out.

Moral of the story: Never get in a car crash. It sucks. Fun fact, when I was hit (from behind), I was hit so hard it knocked my right shoe off. Thanks for sticking with me all you guys, I should be back to normal in the next day or so.

Car wreck

I had a major car crash yesterday while on the Interstate. I went to the ER, and aside from being a little banged up I seem to be okay. My car is totaled, and I'm starting the process of getting the insurance claim filed and I guess I'm going to talk to an attorney in the next couple of days. I'm really sore and tired..but I haven't forgot about by beloved readers! I'll make my belated rounds shortly, but right now I'm trying to take care of all this insurance/legal/medical crap that's now on my plate. Ugh.

Blarg!

Geez, am I ever not just super busy? I got another side-job this afternoon and tomorrow afternoon (not related to my other side gig, doing some work with Verizon Wireless). A Windows Server 2003 machine and a problematic laptop that it appears the hard drive might have died. A huge bummer, for them at least. The day's not over (when it is ever?), I'm slightly hungry..Taco Bell was purchased for lunch but it was unusually-nasty today, so I opted out of that. Dinner might be some type of fried chicken (KFC? Maybe! They're way less nasty than they have been in the past) as I've got into a dietary rut and want something a little different. I should prolly stop eating all this fast food, but then I'd have to find time (and ability) to cook.

Fallout: New Vegas is out, and I might pick it up tonight for some gameplay over the weekend. Then again, I might wait and get it next week and pickup where I left off of Deep Space 9. Decisions, decisions!

In closing let me say that I <3 you and I want to hold your hand. XD

PS: Bill Murray's Ghostbuster-costume appearance at the Scream Awards over the weekend was fantastic. XD

Drive By Update™

More like a slide-by update. Not feeling so well today, so it's just a comment and a video. Will be back on tonight, just haven't felt up for much of anything in the last day or so. Hope I feel better, so I can enjoy Fallout: New Vegas in the next few days.



I don't know why, but I often get the Heathcliff theme song stuck in my head. It's weird, but it happens a lot.

Short Sunday

Another Verizon Wireless side job down. Only two more to go! Sorry for no update yesterday, my beloved readers, as I was amazingly tired. And I'm still pretty damn tired, although it is still pretty damn early. Once I wake up and get some stuff done, I might post a real update. Or it might wait till tomorrow. But for now, here's some OC that I made a while back. I didn't make the image set, just the text.